Friday, August 20, 2010
Friday, June 4, 2010
What a week
This has been one hell of a week. Emotions have run the full spectrum going up and down all week long. Much has been revealed with far great shock value to me than I had ever expected. Honestly, I did not expect myself to react the way that I have. The turn of events can be life threatening but I do not think I am at that level. However, based upon how my Dr has been reacting, the nurse has been feeding me information, it's not a time for taking things lightly.
I have a wonderful family with a good wife and a great little 8 year old son. Sure we have our issues but who doesn't. There is much to strive for and LIVE for. I have never been a very athletic person and I've gone back and forth with eating junk versus eating healthy. For the most part, I eat well but I eat too much of well. About a year ago, actually a little less, I got more serious about taking better care of myself. I started exercising and trying to get fit. I've lost something like 25 lbs that are staying off. I've hit a lull and have stayed even bot a bit plus or minus a few pounds. I was getting even more eager to get the rest of the weight I want off to reach my goal. I even got slightly excited at the Doctors office when I weighed in at only 223 fully dressed with boots, keys, phone and all! When my son was born, I was 217 with most of that removed. So YES I was proud of myself.
SO when I was told about my diabetes, and how serious it is at this very moment, I was set back on my heels a bit. I know it is treatable but this will not be an easy step forward. The family history and what my brother is going through at this very moment has me very concerned. And his numbers are not nearly as bad as mine are. In the next few weeks, I will have plenty more doctors to see and I will try and get a better grip on my emotions.
Bad start but hopefully a great finish to our summer. I hope yours is starting off better than mine has. (((Hugs)))
I have a wonderful family with a good wife and a great little 8 year old son. Sure we have our issues but who doesn't. There is much to strive for and LIVE for. I have never been a very athletic person and I've gone back and forth with eating junk versus eating healthy. For the most part, I eat well but I eat too much of well. About a year ago, actually a little less, I got more serious about taking better care of myself. I started exercising and trying to get fit. I've lost something like 25 lbs that are staying off. I've hit a lull and have stayed even bot a bit plus or minus a few pounds. I was getting even more eager to get the rest of the weight I want off to reach my goal. I even got slightly excited at the Doctors office when I weighed in at only 223 fully dressed with boots, keys, phone and all! When my son was born, I was 217 with most of that removed. So YES I was proud of myself.
SO when I was told about my diabetes, and how serious it is at this very moment, I was set back on my heels a bit. I know it is treatable but this will not be an easy step forward. The family history and what my brother is going through at this very moment has me very concerned. And his numbers are not nearly as bad as mine are. In the next few weeks, I will have plenty more doctors to see and I will try and get a better grip on my emotions.
Bad start but hopefully a great finish to our summer. I hope yours is starting off better than mine has. (((Hugs)))
Friday, May 28, 2010
What hug type are you?
There are many different types of hugs. Hugs I think are a requirement of life. It is a universal language that often times associates itself with love. A simple hug can make a persons entire day or the lack of a hug can pulls a persons mood down. Take a look at some of these and see which ones you like best.
'I Love you ' Hug
A close cheek-to-cheek hug that says "I Love You" even more with an added kiss on the lips.
'I Want You Now' Hug
A close hug with a bit of rubbing and grinding.
Big Bear Hug
Pull your partner in really, really, really close, put your arms completely around them, and squeeze tight.
Butt Squeeze Hug
A sexy, passionate hug. Pull your partner in close, lift your leg around their legs and give their butt a passionate squeeze.
Ecstatic Jump-n-Hug
Run at your partner and jump into their arms with excitement!
Encouraging Hug
Pull your partner close and give them a gentle squeeze with a light pat on the back.
Friendly Hug
Put your arms lightly around your partner's shoulders and give a gentle squeeze.
Group Hug
A hug involving multiple people - family or friends where you all put your arms around one another.
Half Hug
A quick wrap, lightly touching your partner where your arms only go halfway around (hence, half a hug).
Hello & Goodbye Hug
A quick, semi-close hug paired with a kiss on the cheek.
Hug of Joy (Girl Hug - unless we are at a sporting event and we just won)
A semi-close hug with excitement and movement that often times includes a bit of excitement jumping.
Passionate Squeeze
Pull your partner in closely and give them a passionate squeeze as you gently kiss along their neck.
Snuggle Hug
Usually works best when sitting on a couch, etc. Drape your arm around your partner's shoulders and snuggle up in close!
Spoon Hug
While not normally thought of as a hug, the 'spoon' is essentially your arms wrapped around your partner -- a hug! While lying in bed on your side, pull your partner close and wrap your body around theirs in a 'spoon' position.
Sympathy Hug
Pull your partner close and lay their head lightly on your shoulder as you give their back a light rub.
Passionate Hug
Pull your partner in closely and give them a passionate embrace as you Hold them running your arms and hands up and down their back.
These are of course just a few types but it's a start. So which type do you prefer?
'I Love you ' Hug
A close cheek-to-cheek hug that says "I Love You" even more with an added kiss on the lips.
'I Want You Now' Hug
A close hug with a bit of rubbing and grinding.
Big Bear Hug
Pull your partner in really, really, really close, put your arms completely around them, and squeeze tight.
Butt Squeeze Hug
A sexy, passionate hug. Pull your partner in close, lift your leg around their legs and give their butt a passionate squeeze.
Ecstatic Jump-n-Hug
Run at your partner and jump into their arms with excitement!
Encouraging Hug
Pull your partner close and give them a gentle squeeze with a light pat on the back.
Friendly Hug
Put your arms lightly around your partner's shoulders and give a gentle squeeze.
Group Hug
A hug involving multiple people - family or friends where you all put your arms around one another.
Half Hug
A quick wrap, lightly touching your partner where your arms only go halfway around (hence, half a hug).
Hello & Goodbye Hug
A quick, semi-close hug paired with a kiss on the cheek.
Hug of Joy (Girl Hug - unless we are at a sporting event and we just won)
A semi-close hug with excitement and movement that often times includes a bit of excitement jumping.
Passionate Squeeze
Pull your partner in closely and give them a passionate squeeze as you gently kiss along their neck.
Snuggle Hug
Usually works best when sitting on a couch, etc. Drape your arm around your partner's shoulders and snuggle up in close!
Spoon Hug
While not normally thought of as a hug, the 'spoon' is essentially your arms wrapped around your partner -- a hug! While lying in bed on your side, pull your partner close and wrap your body around theirs in a 'spoon' position.
Sympathy Hug
Pull your partner close and lay their head lightly on your shoulder as you give their back a light rub.
Passionate Hug
Pull your partner in closely and give them a passionate embrace as you Hold them running your arms and hands up and down their back.
These are of course just a few types but it's a start. So which type do you prefer?
Saturday, May 22, 2010
The Cities of Hate and Love
In my journeys, I came upon two cities which I'll never forget. One was named the City of Hate and the other the City of Love. These two cities always fought with each other.
The City of Hate was a city that no one would ever want to return too after leaving. Buildings were all painted fire red. People were cold, they turned the other cheek when someone was in trouble. The city was filled with crime. It wasn't even safe to walk your dog around the block.
The City of Love was quite different. Buildings were the beautiful colors of nature. The scenery created the feeling of tranquility. People cared for others. If anyone was in need of help, someone else was there.
The City of Love sent a few people to the City of Hate to try and get them to change their ways, but they were rejected before ever entering the gates. Each time the City of Hate sent people to destroy the City of Love they couldn't accomplish their task. Nor did they return. When the people of Love finally did enter the City of Hate, through their love, there was no longer a City of Hate but one big City of Love. I guess the old saying is true. Love conquers over hate always.
The City of Hate was a city that no one would ever want to return too after leaving. Buildings were all painted fire red. People were cold, they turned the other cheek when someone was in trouble. The city was filled with crime. It wasn't even safe to walk your dog around the block.
The City of Love was quite different. Buildings were the beautiful colors of nature. The scenery created the feeling of tranquility. People cared for others. If anyone was in need of help, someone else was there.
The City of Love sent a few people to the City of Hate to try and get them to change their ways, but they were rejected before ever entering the gates. Each time the City of Hate sent people to destroy the City of Love they couldn't accomplish their task. Nor did they return. When the people of Love finally did enter the City of Hate, through their love, there was no longer a City of Hate but one big City of Love. I guess the old saying is true. Love conquers over hate always.
Monday, May 17, 2010
When will I ever learn?
Well this past weekend was another blunder that will keep me in the dog house for a while. To know my spouse, is to know one hell of a strong willed woman. She is very head strong and find a way to get things her way. This has it's good and bad points. She is very logical and looks at things carefully when making decisions. However, on the flip side, she is very quick to form immediate opinions (right or wrong) when she hears something that sets her back on here heels.
The story itself isn't that important. We were in front of someone else having a conversation together and I made a comment (harmless) about what our activities would be next weekend. As typical I had my dates screwed up. That too doesn't really matter as that wasn't the issue. I am still not real sure what she heard or in what tone she heard it in but I can promise her interpretation was a total misfire. What she heard however, lit the fuse on the dynamite.
As we walk to the car, she made some comments and promptly stopped talking as our son was with us and she did not want to deal with this in front of him. As I attempted miserably to try and figure out what I said or how I said it incorrectly, I peacefully made it home and even managed to answer questions to our son regarding this incident.
Now up to this point, I honestly have done nothing wrong. I said nothing wrong or even improper. When we get home, the flame throwers a lit in my direction. Here is where I screwed up. When the wife blew up at me, I did not think or even respond, I reacted. I should have thrown in the towel at that point and cut the losses. But Nooooo... I have to prove my point. It didn't take long for sanity to return and for me to know we both needed to step away. At this point, there is not appropriate response as the moment I open the mouth, she runs it over like a freight train. She vents and vents and vents until she realizes I've stopped arguing. A few moments later, I come back with a sincere apology for my ugly reaction and I even give a more appropriate response to the original reaction. I really am sorry that she misunderstood what I had said and her response is that apology was all she wanted in the first place.
Now the funny part is that she still doesn't see her part in the entire situation but I digress. All she wanted was for me to understand how she felt and accept how she felt. Right or wrong. This is sometimes more difficult to do than say. For us men out there, take it from me. Sometimes, we simply need to listen to our spouses and nothing more. Love and accept them and the peace goes much further. When it comes to emotions, many times, right, wrong and even logic have no presence.
Thank goodness the meltdown is over and we can get back to normal. But I'm sure I'll be looking for brownie points for a while
The story itself isn't that important. We were in front of someone else having a conversation together and I made a comment (harmless) about what our activities would be next weekend. As typical I had my dates screwed up. That too doesn't really matter as that wasn't the issue. I am still not real sure what she heard or in what tone she heard it in but I can promise her interpretation was a total misfire. What she heard however, lit the fuse on the dynamite.
As we walk to the car, she made some comments and promptly stopped talking as our son was with us and she did not want to deal with this in front of him. As I attempted miserably to try and figure out what I said or how I said it incorrectly, I peacefully made it home and even managed to answer questions to our son regarding this incident.
Now up to this point, I honestly have done nothing wrong. I said nothing wrong or even improper. When we get home, the flame throwers a lit in my direction. Here is where I screwed up. When the wife blew up at me, I did not think or even respond, I reacted. I should have thrown in the towel at that point and cut the losses. But Nooooo... I have to prove my point. It didn't take long for sanity to return and for me to know we both needed to step away. At this point, there is not appropriate response as the moment I open the mouth, she runs it over like a freight train. She vents and vents and vents until she realizes I've stopped arguing. A few moments later, I come back with a sincere apology for my ugly reaction and I even give a more appropriate response to the original reaction. I really am sorry that she misunderstood what I had said and her response is that apology was all she wanted in the first place.
Now the funny part is that she still doesn't see her part in the entire situation but I digress. All she wanted was for me to understand how she felt and accept how she felt. Right or wrong. This is sometimes more difficult to do than say. For us men out there, take it from me. Sometimes, we simply need to listen to our spouses and nothing more. Love and accept them and the peace goes much further. When it comes to emotions, many times, right, wrong and even logic have no presence.
Thank goodness the meltdown is over and we can get back to normal. But I'm sure I'll be looking for brownie points for a while
Friday, May 14, 2010
What to do
Well the wife is gone again. She will be back tomorrow but I get a night with me and little man. The wife and he best friend/neighbor are off to see Martina McBride again... I think this must be the 5th...6th...7th time they have seen her???? They have front row seats this time. Last time I think they were on the 5th row. I like her and all and I think she is really cute but how many times can I really see her? It's not like I get to bring her home with me.
So far lil man and I went to his favorite restaurant for dinner and not it's clean up time. I guess with this nasty storm going on outside it will be kid movies and Popcorn in bed. Tomorrow morning I promised to take him to see Iron Man 2. I saw it last week and do'nt see much that would be too inappropriate for him. It is no worst than Transformers. Of course I refused to let him see that last one. A bit too adult if you ask me. Sunday is another of those wonderful birthday parties to attend.... Why can't I find a way to get out of that one? Ya think I can get away with dropping him off???...... I didn't think so... :(
So far lil man and I went to his favorite restaurant for dinner and not it's clean up time. I guess with this nasty storm going on outside it will be kid movies and Popcorn in bed. Tomorrow morning I promised to take him to see Iron Man 2. I saw it last week and do'nt see much that would be too inappropriate for him. It is no worst than Transformers. Of course I refused to let him see that last one. A bit too adult if you ask me. Sunday is another of those wonderful birthday parties to attend.... Why can't I find a way to get out of that one? Ya think I can get away with dropping him off???...... I didn't think so... :(
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Childhood Toys
My last post got me to thinking about toys and things I played with as a kid. I'd say I was pretty rough on most of my toys as a youngster. My favorite toys usually ended up being things like Hot Wheels and Tonka trucks. I've even gone so far as to search Ebay for toys that I used to play with as a kid and purchase them for my son. He has no appreciation for them and doesn't even play with them but I don't mind. I still like to look at them.
I purchased a teal colored dump truck that isn't perfect but it is as close to perfect as a truck can be that is in original condition made in roughly 1965 or so. The only thing I thin kit's missing is a mirror and the shovel that hooked onto the side. I've also found some really neat steel trucks that have been restored or redone that I didn't have as a kid but I just liked it so I got it. I do'nt think it's worth it but perhaps one of these days I may search Ebay for vintage Hot Wheels and see what I find.
The vast majority of my toys didn't make it through my adolescent years. My mom still has a few toys left. Most of the pieces have been lost but there is still a Holiday Inn play set that still exists. An old Fire Truck that actually pumped water. I still have my old Hot Wheel cars that managed to survive. Including one I purchased in Europe.
I don't think kids today appreciate what we played with as kids. Today it's all electronics and TV. I'm grateful my son plays characters. At least he has a good imagination. I just get tired of Harrison Ford characters. :)
That's about it for tonight. I hope each of you made it through another day in comfort.
I purchased a teal colored dump truck that isn't perfect but it is as close to perfect as a truck can be that is in original condition made in roughly 1965 or so. The only thing I thin kit's missing is a mirror and the shovel that hooked onto the side. I've also found some really neat steel trucks that have been restored or redone that I didn't have as a kid but I just liked it so I got it. I do'nt think it's worth it but perhaps one of these days I may search Ebay for vintage Hot Wheels and see what I find.
The vast majority of my toys didn't make it through my adolescent years. My mom still has a few toys left. Most of the pieces have been lost but there is still a Holiday Inn play set that still exists. An old Fire Truck that actually pumped water. I still have my old Hot Wheel cars that managed to survive. Including one I purchased in Europe.
I don't think kids today appreciate what we played with as kids. Today it's all electronics and TV. I'm grateful my son plays characters. At least he has a good imagination. I just get tired of Harrison Ford characters. :)
That's about it for tonight. I hope each of you made it through another day in comfort.
It's been a while
Another week is going by and I never seem to know where the time goes. As a kid, it seemed we never would get old enough fast enough. That birthday just always seemed to be forever in getting to us. Now as an adult, there never seems to be enough time in the day.
I remember as a kid, playing hard form sun up to sun down. Seldom was there idol time. We didn't have TV to watch as there is today. I think we were lucky if we had 4 channels to watch. In comparison, we used our imaginations to keep us occupied. We made Forts out of card board boxes or ravines. We hid in bushes as we waiting to jump out and attack.
I have the hardest time getting my son to ride a bike. He does it well when he wants too but he just doesn't like too. When I was his age, you could not keep me off a bike. Forget the fact I had no clue where the brakes were. Forget the fact it belonged to my brother and was twice the size it should be for me. I rode and rode hard and fast. My goal was to see how fast I could go. Stopping was a bit more adventuresome. The family car or brick wall to the house was how I stopped. I also mastered jumping off while going full speed and watching it crash. It was the coolest thing ever!
Today we... I keep my kid so over protected, I think I forgot to let my kid just be a kid. When he scraped his knee the other day falling form his bike, we all made like it was the greatest things since sliced bread. Mostly because had we not, he would NOT have gotten back up and started riding again. We practically had to force him back up on the bike.
My little boy is still growing up faster and faster. I fuss at him for crawling into our bed at night but I'm going to miss it when he does. We are already hitting May and that means Summer is just around the corner. Vacation will be here soon and then the holiday season will be near too. When do we have time to stop and see what is really going on around us?
We live in a world full of terrible things. We censor the news just to keep our children from being exposed to the negativity that is all around us. Sure there are rotten parts to our world but look at some of the good things. We have friends and loved ones near us. Our children playing is a joy I can't really put words too. I have a job. The pay sucks but I get to do something enjoyable and productive. No matter where I go, I can always learn something new. Look at the colors of Spring time and see the beauty that grows all around us. There is joy surrounding us all over but we need to retrain our eyes to see it. Take a minute today to see something good and then share it with someone else and see if the pattern doesn't spread. Have a great day everyone!
I remember as a kid, playing hard form sun up to sun down. Seldom was there idol time. We didn't have TV to watch as there is today. I think we were lucky if we had 4 channels to watch. In comparison, we used our imaginations to keep us occupied. We made Forts out of card board boxes or ravines. We hid in bushes as we waiting to jump out and attack.
I have the hardest time getting my son to ride a bike. He does it well when he wants too but he just doesn't like too. When I was his age, you could not keep me off a bike. Forget the fact I had no clue where the brakes were. Forget the fact it belonged to my brother and was twice the size it should be for me. I rode and rode hard and fast. My goal was to see how fast I could go. Stopping was a bit more adventuresome. The family car or brick wall to the house was how I stopped. I also mastered jumping off while going full speed and watching it crash. It was the coolest thing ever!
Today we... I keep my kid so over protected, I think I forgot to let my kid just be a kid. When he scraped his knee the other day falling form his bike, we all made like it was the greatest things since sliced bread. Mostly because had we not, he would NOT have gotten back up and started riding again. We practically had to force him back up on the bike.
My little boy is still growing up faster and faster. I fuss at him for crawling into our bed at night but I'm going to miss it when he does. We are already hitting May and that means Summer is just around the corner. Vacation will be here soon and then the holiday season will be near too. When do we have time to stop and see what is really going on around us?
We live in a world full of terrible things. We censor the news just to keep our children from being exposed to the negativity that is all around us. Sure there are rotten parts to our world but look at some of the good things. We have friends and loved ones near us. Our children playing is a joy I can't really put words too. I have a job. The pay sucks but I get to do something enjoyable and productive. No matter where I go, I can always learn something new. Look at the colors of Spring time and see the beauty that grows all around us. There is joy surrounding us all over but we need to retrain our eyes to see it. Take a minute today to see something good and then share it with someone else and see if the pattern doesn't spread. Have a great day everyone!
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Vacation time is near
It's that time of year again where school is coming to a close in a short period of time and the family will be taking time away from home. For a long time, we had a beach house that belongs to my brother in law. We got to spend lots of time down at the beach. The drive form home was only about an hour and a half or less. Depending upon traffic course.
Hurricane Ike took away our home on Crystal Beach and there isn't anything but a vacant lot there now. I didn't think I'd miss it as much as I do. It was a year later when I finally returned to see the place. I've been a few times since and normally use it as an excuse o take the bike out for a trip. I'm glad to see the place is rebuilding, I just wish it were us being a part of it.
Last year, we took a trip to Alabama. I think it took us 8 hours to get there and we rented a cabin for a week. We enjoyed it so much that we decided if we could afford it, we would make plans for a return trip. As it turns out, we were able to rent the same cabin! IT was the only one available and this time we will take two weeks vacation. I can't wait to go. I just wish I were bring my bike with us. It's that time of year again where school is coming to a close in a short period of time and the family will be taking time away from home. For a long time, we had a beach house hat belongs to my brother in law. We got to spend lots of time down at the beach. The drive form home was only about an hour and a half or less. Depending upon traffic course.
Hurricane Ike took away our home on Crystal Beach and there isn't anything but a vacant lot there now. I didn't think I'd miss it as much as I do. It was a year later when I finally returned to see the place. I've been a few times since and normally use it as an excuse o take the bike out for a trip. I'm glad to see the place is rebuilding, I just wish it were us being a part of it.
Last year, we took a trip to Alabama. I think it took us 8 hours to get there and we rented a cabin for a week. We enjoyed it so much that we decided if we could afford it, we would make plans for a return trip. As it turns out, we were able to rent the same cabin! IT was the only one available and this time we will take two weeks vacation. I can't wait to go. I just wish I were bring my bike with us.
Hurricane Ike took away our home on Crystal Beach and there isn't anything but a vacant lot there now. I didn't think I'd miss it as much as I do. It was a year later when I finally returned to see the place. I've been a few times since and normally use it as an excuse o take the bike out for a trip. I'm glad to see the place is rebuilding, I just wish it were us being a part of it.
Last year, we took a trip to Alabama. I think it took us 8 hours to get there and we rented a cabin for a week. We enjoyed it so much that we decided if we could afford it, we would make plans for a return trip. As it turns out, we were able to rent the same cabin! IT was the only one available and this time we will take two weeks vacation. I can't wait to go. I just wish I were bring my bike with us. It's that time of year again where school is coming to a close in a short period of time and the family will be taking time away from home. For a long time, we had a beach house hat belongs to my brother in law. We got to spend lots of time down at the beach. The drive form home was only about an hour and a half or less. Depending upon traffic course.
Hurricane Ike took away our home on Crystal Beach and there isn't anything but a vacant lot there now. I didn't think I'd miss it as much as I do. It was a year later when I finally returned to see the place. I've been a few times since and normally use it as an excuse o take the bike out for a trip. I'm glad to see the place is rebuilding, I just wish it were us being a part of it.
Last year, we took a trip to Alabama. I think it took us 8 hours to get there and we rented a cabin for a week. We enjoyed it so much that we decided if we could afford it, we would make plans for a return trip. As it turns out, we were able to rent the same cabin! IT was the only one available and this time we will take two weeks vacation. I can't wait to go. I just wish I were bring my bike with us.
Monday, April 26, 2010
Will I survive?
It isn't even close to summer yet and I'm already hating this heat! here I am just showered to attempt to cool down and resting without clothes. Damn it! time to put clothes back on as here come the rest of the family...
I admit it... when the family leave and I have the opportunity, I'm naked. If I weren't so damned shy, I'd probably join a nudist colony. :) I don't like being away from my family all the time but for financial reasons, we keep the house at 80 or above just to try and make the utility bill manageable. In the winter time we freeze and when it gets hot, we suffer. Apparently I am the only one who complains.
Anyone with a guest house I can live naked in for the next 4 or 5 months of hot weather? :D
I admit it... when the family leave and I have the opportunity, I'm naked. If I weren't so damned shy, I'd probably join a nudist colony. :) I don't like being away from my family all the time but for financial reasons, we keep the house at 80 or above just to try and make the utility bill manageable. In the winter time we freeze and when it gets hot, we suffer. Apparently I am the only one who complains.
Anyone with a guest house I can live naked in for the next 4 or 5 months of hot weather? :D
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Food for Thought
Not long ago, I had asked a question about what do you do to keep things alive and exciting in your relationship. One of the responses I received talked about all the small things that happen between them. Stuff like snuggling, gentle kisses on the shoulder at bed time. Cleanup the kitchen without being asked too. These are all wonderful things to bring into any relationship.
I remember doing all these things early on in my marriage. While dating, I traveled all the time for work but on a semi regular basis, for no apparent reason, I'd send flowers to my wife at her job. Most of the time it was a dozen roses or some other pretty arrangements. She did not keep them all but about our kitchen sink, is an entire cabinet full of vases that the roses came in. There are still gifts all over our home that I picked up for her from all over the US. One of my favorite pieces are these two crystal egg shaped oil lamps. They are only about 4 to 5 inches tall and about 3 inches around. It uses some sort of fiber optic wick that burns the oil but never needs replacing or gets cruddy. It stays as pretty today as it was brand new. Flying home early, I'd get home before she did and I've have the house clean when she came in. That was ALWAYS a good thing. Still is by the way. :)
Thee was a lot of other things that I did and still do (just not as often) to express my love for her. However, things change. Life happens. Kids come along and priorities change. Paying bills and taking care of our son become more important. Like most people, we tend to take things for granted and just expect they will be there as they have been for so long. The pitfall to this is we all need to feel appreciated and desired. I'm a hard headed mule at times. I don't mind cleaning up the kitchen but if you expect em to do it because you don't like to do it... I have an issue with that. I never will ask someone to do something for me that I won't do myself. If each time I come over to give you and hug and kiss you push me away or accuse me of smothering you... Say it enough times I will STOP. My tenacity turns into resentment and all the sweet wonderful things I use dot do constantly cease.
Could my slowing down of all the sweet nothings (that really mean everything) be part of the cause? Perhaps. Could it actually be me causing me to feel the way I am and not her? If I really wan to have the non-stop giddy feeling of being in love to return, perhaps it is time I shed the resentments and get rid of some of my tenacity. Think about it... When I dated, I did all these things without expecting anything in return. Why should I expect something now? I can't change anyone else but I can alter the way I perceive my current situation. It's just a bit of food for thought.
I remember doing all these things early on in my marriage. While dating, I traveled all the time for work but on a semi regular basis, for no apparent reason, I'd send flowers to my wife at her job. Most of the time it was a dozen roses or some other pretty arrangements. She did not keep them all but about our kitchen sink, is an entire cabinet full of vases that the roses came in. There are still gifts all over our home that I picked up for her from all over the US. One of my favorite pieces are these two crystal egg shaped oil lamps. They are only about 4 to 5 inches tall and about 3 inches around. It uses some sort of fiber optic wick that burns the oil but never needs replacing or gets cruddy. It stays as pretty today as it was brand new. Flying home early, I'd get home before she did and I've have the house clean when she came in. That was ALWAYS a good thing. Still is by the way. :)
Thee was a lot of other things that I did and still do (just not as often) to express my love for her. However, things change. Life happens. Kids come along and priorities change. Paying bills and taking care of our son become more important. Like most people, we tend to take things for granted and just expect they will be there as they have been for so long. The pitfall to this is we all need to feel appreciated and desired. I'm a hard headed mule at times. I don't mind cleaning up the kitchen but if you expect em to do it because you don't like to do it... I have an issue with that. I never will ask someone to do something for me that I won't do myself. If each time I come over to give you and hug and kiss you push me away or accuse me of smothering you... Say it enough times I will STOP. My tenacity turns into resentment and all the sweet wonderful things I use dot do constantly cease.
Could my slowing down of all the sweet nothings (that really mean everything) be part of the cause? Perhaps. Could it actually be me causing me to feel the way I am and not her? If I really wan to have the non-stop giddy feeling of being in love to return, perhaps it is time I shed the resentments and get rid of some of my tenacity. Think about it... When I dated, I did all these things without expecting anything in return. Why should I expect something now? I can't change anyone else but I can alter the way I perceive my current situation. It's just a bit of food for thought.
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Today
Well.. Lil man goes for his new belt this morning in Martial Arts. I hope he does well. He started his Croup cough last night. I have listened to him the last three days and sort of saw or heard it coming. Well it finally arrived. I don't think it's bad enough to keep him out. It sounds terrible but it's one of those things that has to pass.
After Martial Arts, we have a birthday party to bring him too. If I'm lucky, I might even get a chance to ride today. I don't know where I'd ride but since the wife is cranky it's time to vacate the premises. :)
Sorry so short. Time for a shower then leave. Have a great weekend all!
After Martial Arts, we have a birthday party to bring him too. If I'm lucky, I might even get a chance to ride today. I don't know where I'd ride but since the wife is cranky it's time to vacate the premises. :)
Sorry so short. Time for a shower then leave. Have a great weekend all!
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Thank Goodness
I came home today and was glad to be needed to help my best friend go pick up his wife's car. I worked my tail off and put in a 12+ hour day. It felt great! I get home only to find a miserable wife and son. I tell ya... I try my best to stay motivated and happy. It' hard sometimes when your surroundings at so dark.
The good part is tomorrow is Friday!!! YEAH!!! T-Boy goes for his next level belt in Martial Arts Saturday and then there is a birthday party to take him too. Who knows what else is in store. I hope it will be better than last weekend. I hoe peach of you have wonderful plans in store for this coming weekend. ((Hugs))
The good part is tomorrow is Friday!!! YEAH!!! T-Boy goes for his next level belt in Martial Arts Saturday and then there is a birthday party to take him too. Who knows what else is in store. I hope it will be better than last weekend. I hoe peach of you have wonderful plans in store for this coming weekend. ((Hugs))
Am I infectious?
I was reading my watched lists today and it really got me to thinking. One of my friends here has this post that is rather long. In fact many of her posts are long but what I really see is a vibrant blossoming full of life person. She is infectious to be around as you want what she has. I don't mean in a jealous way or even in an envious way. I mean you want to participate and be a part of this persons life!
Life is full of ups and downs. We each have our own crosses to bear. I make efforts to keep my negativity and depression away from others but when I hit one of those stressed out moments. The times when I get so overwhelmed with life on life's terms, I loose site of what is important and of value in my life.
So this morning, I have to ask myself... Am I being infectious in a positive way to those I love and care about or am I simply a virus. No one wants a virus around. I know I haven't been the positive light I wan tot be in recent times but I am trying to clean the windows a bit to make it easier to see.
What are you today? Are you the virus or the antibiotic?
Life is full of ups and downs. We each have our own crosses to bear. I make efforts to keep my negativity and depression away from others but when I hit one of those stressed out moments. The times when I get so overwhelmed with life on life's terms, I loose site of what is important and of value in my life.
So this morning, I have to ask myself... Am I being infectious in a positive way to those I love and care about or am I simply a virus. No one wants a virus around. I know I haven't been the positive light I wan tot be in recent times but I am trying to clean the windows a bit to make it easier to see.
What are you today? Are you the virus or the antibiotic?
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Taxes
Well I made a major screw up when I did my taxes the other night. I originally didn't have my sons social security number when I filled the form out so my taxes were not reporting correctly. I had gone through it a couple of times and I kept coming up with u shaving to pay $1500 in taxes! I was panicking to say the least. So with a more cleared out mind, I went back at it yesterday and started from scratch going through each line. I even realized I was able to claim my sister in law. So now instead of owing the government an additional $1500, we get a return!!!!! Too bad I can't pay bills with it. It needs to go in for next years taxes on the house... :(
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
What to do with these feelings
Alright. This may be out of place for this place but who cares. It's my blog. I guess my mood has been getting a bit more frisky in the past few days. Now me being horny isn't unusual but I normally seem to be able to control it for the most part. Recently, simple things have been making me crazy in the passion department with no real good way to release.
As an example, I saw this mother at my sons Martial Arts helping her son tie his belt. When she did, she pulled her son towards him and rubbed her face next to hers and then sniffed him. Now some of you may think this strange but it was very enduring. Each of us have our own unique smell or aroma. As she showed affection towards her son, she was admiring his aroma. Sounding out of place, I could imagine myself making love to this woman and smelling her scent.
While sitting down with my wife and son, I watched my son as he went back and forth between us touching us and in general, rubbing on us as a cat does when the cat shows affection. My wife would touch him on his neck and shoulder and run her fingers through his hair. This just made me want to take my wife.
I guess I like all this mushy stuff. Then to top it all off, a friend (girl) mentioned she got horny at work and was able to make herself cum while sitting at her desk and no one noticed. That just shot me over the edge. Prior to getting married, my previous girlfriend had ways to make my blood boil with passion. I traveled for a living so seeing her on a regular basis was difficult. So we compensated the best way we could. We teases each other over the phone. Especially when we were in public places while talking on the phone. Mostly at work of course. It meant many trips to the restroom for relief. The great advantage of this is our imaginations had to run wild. Verbally we were able to send each other into a frenzy of lustful thoughts. When we finally did get together, it we made up for it. The teasing and playing of course never stopped. regardless of if we were apart or in person. During sex, we incorporated various forms of masturbation and mutual masturbation into the play. One thing I can say fro sure is it brought about some of the greatest orgasms I think I have ever had.
I've tried to interest my spouse with similar games but for whatever reason, she can't focus her mind or shut her brain off long enough to experience the pleasure. I really feel sorry for her as there is so much she is missing out upon. I know there are far more adventuresome ideas that can be brought into the bedroom but that is one of my biggest turn-on activities. What is it that keeps you and your significant other passionate and wild?
As an example, I saw this mother at my sons Martial Arts helping her son tie his belt. When she did, she pulled her son towards him and rubbed her face next to hers and then sniffed him. Now some of you may think this strange but it was very enduring. Each of us have our own unique smell or aroma. As she showed affection towards her son, she was admiring his aroma. Sounding out of place, I could imagine myself making love to this woman and smelling her scent.
While sitting down with my wife and son, I watched my son as he went back and forth between us touching us and in general, rubbing on us as a cat does when the cat shows affection. My wife would touch him on his neck and shoulder and run her fingers through his hair. This just made me want to take my wife.
I guess I like all this mushy stuff. Then to top it all off, a friend (girl) mentioned she got horny at work and was able to make herself cum while sitting at her desk and no one noticed. That just shot me over the edge. Prior to getting married, my previous girlfriend had ways to make my blood boil with passion. I traveled for a living so seeing her on a regular basis was difficult. So we compensated the best way we could. We teases each other over the phone. Especially when we were in public places while talking on the phone. Mostly at work of course. It meant many trips to the restroom for relief. The great advantage of this is our imaginations had to run wild. Verbally we were able to send each other into a frenzy of lustful thoughts. When we finally did get together, it we made up for it. The teasing and playing of course never stopped. regardless of if we were apart or in person. During sex, we incorporated various forms of masturbation and mutual masturbation into the play. One thing I can say fro sure is it brought about some of the greatest orgasms I think I have ever had.
I've tried to interest my spouse with similar games but for whatever reason, she can't focus her mind or shut her brain off long enough to experience the pleasure. I really feel sorry for her as there is so much she is missing out upon. I know there are far more adventuresome ideas that can be brought into the bedroom but that is one of my biggest turn-on activities. What is it that keeps you and your significant other passionate and wild?
What type of Kisser are you?
Someone got me to thinking the other night. I know.... It's a dangerous thin me thinking... Anyway, the topic of discussion was about being a hugger or a kisser. I love both getting and giving hugs. I think I give pretty good hugs too! However, I also love to kiss.
There are too many different types of kisses to list but I'll try to name just a few. You have the none affectionate ones that are nothing more than a peck on the cheek. Then you have the obligatory spousal kiss that is really the as I just listed but instead of a peck on the cheek, it is a peck on the lips. I hate these types of kisses. It's a tease! I get me started and you leave me wanting more. Why kiss me if all you want to do is peck.
Then you get the total opposite kisses. These are the ones that are wet and sloppy. The usage of the tongue is used but massively. Under the right circumstances, this can be very exciting but unless you build me up to this level, it's just plain overkill.
My favorite kisses are the gentle passionate ones. They start off slow with the lips touching each other. Puckered up just the right amount to allow the softness of her lips to be felt against mine. Then the kiss backs off just a bit. The kiss begs for more so the lips move back together but this time the lips part slightly. Inside me things start to flutter. I want more. So the arms now embrace each other. As each person pulls the other closer our lips begin to explore with open mouth but no tongue. I want to feel your skin and how soft it is. How you taste begins to envelope me.
This of course is only the beginning. This kiss urges more play but we will have to hold on to that thought as that is not what we are here to talk about now. I know there are many other forms of kissing but as I stated, I was only going to list a few. So what type of kisser are you? DO you like soft kisses or do you prefer them hard and rough? What type of kiss gets your blood flowing and makes you crave more?
Now that I got my brain going in the wrong direction, it's going to be difficult to get myself back into work mode. Have a great day!
There are too many different types of kisses to list but I'll try to name just a few. You have the none affectionate ones that are nothing more than a peck on the cheek. Then you have the obligatory spousal kiss that is really the as I just listed but instead of a peck on the cheek, it is a peck on the lips. I hate these types of kisses. It's a tease! I get me started and you leave me wanting more. Why kiss me if all you want to do is peck.
Then you get the total opposite kisses. These are the ones that are wet and sloppy. The usage of the tongue is used but massively. Under the right circumstances, this can be very exciting but unless you build me up to this level, it's just plain overkill.
My favorite kisses are the gentle passionate ones. They start off slow with the lips touching each other. Puckered up just the right amount to allow the softness of her lips to be felt against mine. Then the kiss backs off just a bit. The kiss begs for more so the lips move back together but this time the lips part slightly. Inside me things start to flutter. I want more. So the arms now embrace each other. As each person pulls the other closer our lips begin to explore with open mouth but no tongue. I want to feel your skin and how soft it is. How you taste begins to envelope me.
This of course is only the beginning. This kiss urges more play but we will have to hold on to that thought as that is not what we are here to talk about now. I know there are many other forms of kissing but as I stated, I was only going to list a few. So what type of kisser are you? DO you like soft kisses or do you prefer them hard and rough? What type of kiss gets your blood flowing and makes you crave more?
Now that I got my brain going in the wrong direction, it's going to be difficult to get myself back into work mode. Have a great day!
Monday, April 12, 2010
It Makes me Crazy
Don't you just LOVE working with engineers sometimes? I work in a technology based industry. In this field, there are times when technical issues arise. That isn't unusual but when you have a product that interfaces with your own product and it has been working without issues for a period of time, would it not raise an eyebrow when all of a sudden it stopped working?
There is a wireless phone jack system that we use. It has a quote proven" past history of working with our equipment. Over the past few months, we have had issues with it working intermittently. This past week in front of regional executives, I intentionally tried some troubleshooting steps. None of which worked. So today I called engineering to plead my case.
With them it is no wonder I get questions form out of nowhere. I'm glad I have a few troubleshooting skills as I answered most of his questions to satisfaction. Here is my issue. If I'm telling you there is a problem and this is how the problem lays out, should you not at least give it merit? I may be wrong but I just felt the conversation was played down and will end up being ignored. I have had the complaint from my techs for some time now but I seem to be the only one trying to excilate the issue. There are days I sure wish engineering were in the same building /city as me. Then I can show them directly.
There is a wireless phone jack system that we use. It has a quote proven" past history of working with our equipment. Over the past few months, we have had issues with it working intermittently. This past week in front of regional executives, I intentionally tried some troubleshooting steps. None of which worked. So today I called engineering to plead my case.
With them it is no wonder I get questions form out of nowhere. I'm glad I have a few troubleshooting skills as I answered most of his questions to satisfaction. Here is my issue. If I'm telling you there is a problem and this is how the problem lays out, should you not at least give it merit? I may be wrong but I just felt the conversation was played down and will end up being ignored. I have had the complaint from my techs for some time now but I seem to be the only one trying to excilate the issue. There are days I sure wish engineering were in the same building /city as me. Then I can show them directly.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Is it over?
Well another weekend has come and gone too fast. Even lil man asked this morning. Why is it the weekend days go by so fast? Tomorrow he has a field day so it too will probably go by too quickly. But when the real school work comes back on Tuesday, it will seem like it last forever.
I'd love to say I feel fully rested but as those who know me, know I don't ever sleep well. I still have enjoyed my time this weekend. It would have been nicer to have had a rider friend tag along. Riding with friends is always more fun than riding alone. I feel so badly for my son as he wants to go on the "real roads" with me so badly. It's not going to happen however. He has a few more years to wait till that happens. I can see he and I riding down the road.
I have not been exercising much this past week as I'm still trying to get over this crud but I'm down to 223 lbs. I have not been this weight since my son was born 8 years ago! I am glad to see positive change happening in this department. I still have a long way to go to meet my goal but I'll take it one day at a time. If...When I do reach that goal, then I'll go back to the Dr for my checkup. I don't want ot see her until I hit my goal.
Have a great week everybody! Don't work too hard. (((HUGS)))
I'd love to say I feel fully rested but as those who know me, know I don't ever sleep well. I still have enjoyed my time this weekend. It would have been nicer to have had a rider friend tag along. Riding with friends is always more fun than riding alone. I feel so badly for my son as he wants to go on the "real roads" with me so badly. It's not going to happen however. He has a few more years to wait till that happens. I can see he and I riding down the road.
I have not been exercising much this past week as I'm still trying to get over this crud but I'm down to 223 lbs. I have not been this weight since my son was born 8 years ago! I am glad to see positive change happening in this department. I still have a long way to go to meet my goal but I'll take it one day at a time. If...When I do reach that goal, then I'll go back to the Dr for my checkup. I don't want ot see her until I hit my goal.
Have a great week everybody! Don't work too hard. (((HUGS)))
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Blessed
This afternoon, I took a ride out to a gathering where a few of my friends were hanging out. I haven't been with that group in a long time but every time I show up, it's always like being at home. There were speakers talking and sharing and it really was nice to see positive change in people. There were many faces I recognized but I didn't know their names as it's been so long since I attended regularly. They ALL knew me!
At times, I can really make myself feel all alone so when I received such a welcome, it's hard to stay on a pity pot. You have to smile and realize just how blessed we are to be where we are right at this very moment. Sure life can have it's bad moments. Look around. Today it started off raining and cool. As soon as it dried out, my son wanted to ride the motorcycle. So for the next hour, that is exactly what we did. The wife had no particular things to do so she ran off with the neighbor and went to my neighbors mom's home to visit. Yes we have one very large extended family if you can't tell. Right now my son and his Nanny are hanging out at his grandmothers and just enjoying life. Tomorrow I'm sure we will wake up, get ready and head to church. Afterwords I'm sure we will pick some place to eat. Then Monday it's back to school and work for everyone.
This might not sound like much but it's peaceful. No one is mad or arguing at one another. We tend to do things by ourselves and then some things together. We love each other. Today I am a blessed man.And just for today, life does not have my permission to beat me up.
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